I’ve been super busy lately and wrapped up in life. Recently I journeyed back to some old stopping grounds. This brought back some old memories and feelings, some good and some not so good. I journeyed for a wedding of two really wonderful people. They are such an amazing couple, complementing each other in everyway. Their story is genuine and sweet. It was wonderful to celebrate their union and commitment. Good news is that seeing this couple reassured me that my last relationship was terribly wrong; and bad news, I felt taken aback that I don’t have someone amazing in my life to complement me.
Overall, I feel disheartened because I no longer have someone by my side. Now, I have several meaningless guys. The trouble with dating is nothing’s serious; it’s easy to keep things light and fun. It is fun, but I miss the deep intimacy of sharing secrets and thoughts. Moreover, I miss having one person who will be there for you when you need them. I miss pillow talk and of course all the other fun things between the sheets, hehe. I had it once, I was in love, and I miss it.
This post isn’t meant to be sappy, just reflective. Moreover, I want to know where to find a guy who will be that meaningful in my life? Probably not on Match. I saw an add for a free weekend on E-Harmony, I think I’ll be trying it out.
Other than that, I asked a friend’s sister-in-law’s friend (bird hunter) out and he responded asking for my number. Unfortunately that was Monday and I haven’t heard a peep. Another guy (short blue eyes) from match has asked me out for this weekend, but I’m having a hard time nailing down a plan. I just don’t see this guy working out for me and I don’t want to waste the hour or two to find out what I already know.
Talkie Pants keeps texting me, maybe I should give him a 4th chance? But supposedly he’s broken a foot, so he won’t be very active on a 4th date. Way to go, talkie pants.
There are a few new messages on match that seem intriguing. One guy (fire crotch) seems pretty with it. He’s doing his first triathlon, which I love. Obviously he has extremely RED hair, duh. Not sure how much I’d be into a ginger. Plus, we’d probably have ginger kids and need to spend buckoos of bucks on sunscreen a year, so there is an obvious future budget concern.
Overall, I’m losing motivation and steam with this dating thing. It’s time consuming and takes a lot of energy. If anyone has tips to keep me in the game, I’d love to hear them.
