Tuesday, January 11, 2011

It’s official

I’m now 30, say goodbye to my 20s. I guess the key lesson here is nothing really changed, you think by turning 30 you might have some kind of ‘come to Jesus’ moment, or suddenly the world makes sense. Nope, I must have already turned 30 a year ago when I made some major decisions in my life about what I hold important, and now my driver’s license has finally caught up.

As for love and relationships, I’m still single and spend my nights cuddling my dog. But I’m going to forgive myself this year and stop feeling down about not having someone to come home to. I want to forgive myself for failed relationships, failed dating experiences and just stop putting pressure on myself to build my own family. I want to focus on building myself up and those around me. I want to tell all my friends and family how much they mean to me and how fabulous it is to have their love and support and I want to return that love and support. I spent too much time over the past year analyzing what I was doing or not doing as well as the men I meet. Instead, I should just be me and be happy. Stop putting the pressure of having to meet “the one”, get married and have kids. I need to keep encouraging myself to put myself out there, and just feel more with my heart than my brain. Stop the rules and just go with my feelings.

The person I am now is more serious about herself and goals, but I need the balance between taking myself seriously and enjoying life like I was still 20.

Things to do now that I’m 30:
1) Let go of the past
2) Forgive myself
3) Appreciate the Present
4) Follow my heart
5) Give Love
6) Accept Love

These things are not completely foreign, but sometimes I get sidetracked and lose a sense of who I am and the wonderful things I have in life. Being upset about what I don’t have, stops now.